Currently Listening Breakaway By Kelly Clarkson see related

WOW!!!! Yesterday had to have been one of the worst days of my life. I think it started turning sour right when i woke up. Started off with a test that i thought i was going to do great on but then I go in to take the test and there is crap on there I didn't even know that was going to be on there. Then in the afternoon i went up to the bike shop to work for a little and some IDIOT (Richard) tipped my bike over and broke the windshield, dented the tank, scraped up the right said, and bent the brake peg in. I was so ticked off. I went to sing song practice and pretended like everything was ok. While practicing I see the ACU police start driving towards my bike. He stopped looked at it, went back to the cop car and pulled out the boot (the thing that goes around your tires so you can not drive anywhere) I went over there and talked to him and I was lucky enough to get the clear to drive it away. He told me he never wanted to see my bike again on or around campus because the plates are not registered. I was pretty ticked off with that comment because I drive my bike here, there, and everywhere. Saying I could not drive my bike to school was like telling me I could not drink milk anymore (for you that do not know I go through about a gallon of milk a day. I love that stuff) So I move the bike and go back inside and finish our performance. I go back outside and find a boot on my bike. I was so confused and Pissed off at the same time. I went storming into the police office and asked why there was a boot around my bike. He then said never wanted to see it on campus again, and when he saw it parked there he decided he was going to be a prick and boot it. He listed off all the things I have done wrong and said he was about to take me to jail. That was totally humbling. I definitely did not want to go to jail. He said that he was going to call the Abilene cops and impound my bike. He said he was going to keep the boot on my bike and i have to talk to the Police today about what they are going to do. He told me that and sent me on my way. I was stranded at school with no way to get home. With all that happening in one day and keeping it all to myself and pinned up while still putting a smile on my face tears me apart. I think that was the first time in a good 8 month that i have broke down and bawled my eyes out.

Here is the life lesson for today. Personally I never want others to know what's wrong in my life. I keep all the bad things inside me and never let anyone see that. I say that i can deal with it myself and that others do not have to worry about it. My theory on that is why do I have to act down and depressed, people dont want to see that. people want to see a smile and thats what makes others smile. My worst fear is seeing the people around me not happy or not smiling. Even if i do not know the person they still deserve that. Everyone does. Outside appearances of how you carry yourself is important, but whats more important is how you feel on the inside. If you ever feel mad, frustrated, disappointed, angry, confused, or a little ticked off let a friend know. It feels so good to get it off your chest and keep on living life. Everything bad that happens in your life is a speed bump and you can take it anyway you want. You can try to go around them but they will keep on building until you hit a brick wall or you can tackle the bump and if you fall or stumble ask a friend to help you. The road you are living is not meant to be taken by yourself. Trust your friends to be there for you when you need it. And if you feel like you do not have any good friends that you feel like you can do that with, it makes it hard, it makes it really hard. Anyone that reads this deserves a best or great friend to be there for them. If you need anyone at anytime you can call me, write me, text me, or anything. I want to be there for anyone that needs it. Cherish your friends that have been there for you and tell them thanks for everything they are going to do. Everyone deserves to hear some good news everyday. Make people around you smile, but if something's wrong talk to someone. Right now i have to go talk to the cops so wish me luck. Hope everyone haves a great and wonderful day. I love every single person out there and If anyone ever needs anything let me know.

Paul "Stay Strong, Stay Focused, Stay Clean"

Currently Watching The Dukes of Hazzard (Unrated Widescreen Edition) By Johnny Knoxville, Seann William Scott, Jessica Simpson see related

Life is so complicated. Why do things happen, why do things not happen? Always keeping that positive attitude is what gets me through the day. A good hug never hurts, but Nate (my roommate) is getting tierd of those. lol Always put a smile on your face. You never know when someone that is having a bad day will look over and see a smile and it will make them smile. Smiles are contageous and free so do not be afraid to be caught with one. Be thankful for your friend. Treasure them with all your heart. Tell them that you are glad you are their friend. Short little messages always make people feel special. Here is my thought/task of the day. Do something out of the ordinary. Do something that makes you feel a little uncomfortable, but has a good reason behind it. Step out of your box, comfort zone, to achieve that. Do it so that you make someone else feel good, happy, special, or loved. Let that be mine and yours test for today. Have a Good one. Stay Strong, Stay Focused, Stay Clean.

Love Always

Paul